Dare to dream

what you get VS what you know

I heard this interesting topic of conversation today. ‘Try not to have a wish of getting something as this originates from greed. Instead, try to have a wish of knowing something as this orginiates from wisdom’

Interesting indeed. Someone gave this example ‘do not wish to get married. Instead, wish to know your true love. Wanting to get married doesnt ensure that you will have a blessed and long-lasting marriage in the future. Instead, knowing the true love of your life will ensure that you will stay happy and live in bliss for the rest of your life.’

Intersting idea, isn’t it? (: Everyone should thinking of what they want to know, instead of what they want to get. (:

I guess holidays really made me realize that I have nothing to look forward in life. There is nothing exciting in my life once studies are over! I just sit in front of my laptop everyday to watch some drama serials. What a sad and boring life I have. =.=

And I guess I have been sleeping too much lately. My body clock is a little screwed up. I have difficulties sleeping at night and I tend to sleep quite a lot in the morning! And yesterday, I dreamt that I was a bee, befriending an ant. =.= What a weird dream! haha. 

Updates! (Part 3)

3. Friends

In my closest group of friends, one of them was experiencing a difficult time in her relationship with her bf. Just around 1 month ago, we realized through facebook relationship status update, she broke up with her bf. The rest of us were shocked. She was together with her bf since University days and they were together for more than 2 years already. They also always seem to be very sweet together. The bf even had plans to start saving and buy a house in the future. Thus, the rest of us really had no idea what happened exactly. She seemed unwilling to talk about it when we met up for one of our friend’s birthday. All of us were worried for her. Some of us even msg her to ask if everything is alright but she did not reply to any of our messages. =’( When we had our gathering, she seemed unhappy and was no longer wearing the ring that her bf gave her. =’( The rest of us were speculating what happened and we noticed that one of the comments posted by her bf on facebook was that ‘why should I be sad when the other party may be having a good time with the 3rd party’ We were really suspicious that there was a 3rd party in their relationship. We even suspected that one of the guys who kept posting comments on her wall was the 3rd party! 

But just last weekend, we got news that she got back together with her bf already! (: YAY! All of us are so happy for her! (: Because all of us feel that they are very sweet together and 2 years is not a short period of time. It’s good that they are together again! (: Happy for them! (: 

Updates! (Part 2)

2. Job Applications

The big 4 companies held a University recruitment drive together in November. All students graduating next year will apply together and get selected by the different companies. I was really lucky to get offered by my dream company,P**. Never did I dream that I would get an interview with P**. My results were not fantastic. I did not hold any leadership positions in my CCA. But I was lucky enough to get an interview opportunity with P**! I was so surprised when I receive the email from the HR department. And a week after the interview, I got a call from my interviewer to inform me that I’m selected for the position! OMG. I’M SO SO SO LUCKY! I was just hoping and praying very hard that I can at least get shortlisted for the interview. And now, I’m being offered a position in the company! I FEEL REALLY LUCKY AND HAPPY FOR MYSELF! (: After getting the job offer, I start to ponder again. My ex-internship company also offered me a position in the company. So what should I choose? I was in a dilemma for quite some time. I have always wanted to get into my dream company but now, I’m again quite scared of going into a new environment and having to adapt to new people and new environment. I start to wonder and doubt myself if I can really adapt well in my dream company. I’m really doubtful of myself again. I start to ask what did the interviewer saw in me. I dislike myself for being so unconfident of myself and being so timid and scared of trying out new things. I told myself I should be brave and after all, it’s my dream company. I should not doubt myself. Since the interviewer decided to put her trust in me, I should trust myself too and believe in myself that I have what it takes to excel in the company. JIAYOU HE HANXI! Taking the first step is always the most difficult thing to do. But it is an important step before success. So, I must JIAYOU AND BE BRAVE! JIAYOU! 

Updates! (Part 1)

It has been a long time since I last blog. The last entry posted by me was in week 4! And the term has ended now and 1 week of holidays has passed! And my niece is 3.5 months old now! HOW TIME FLIES! Many things happened during the short span of a few weeks. Let me take the time to slowly recount them to you. (:

1. Studies/school term

This term can be considered my most xiong term in SMU ever. I only took 3 modules this term but it feels worse than taking 5 modules! AFA, AT and TP. OMG. I never want to repeat this kind of combination ever again. AFA is the xiong-est module I ever took in SMU. AFA requires 200% of your time, leaving you with no time for other modules. AFA ruins everything. First, you won’t be able to score no matter how hard you study or how much time you put in for the module. Second, it leaves you with no time for other modules, which means that your other modules will just go down the drain, which is why I believe AFA is known as THE KILLER MODULE in SMU. T.T Exams were just as screwed. I have no idea how unprepared or how screwed I can get for the exams. This kind of things never happen in Secondary school or JC. But WHY, WHY, WHY is this happening in University? Am I too tired after studying so long in the education system? I no longer feel the sense of urgency or competitiveness or passion for my results. Results to me, are no longer as important as they seem in Secondary school and JC. =.= I have no idea what happened. I WANT TO FIND BACK THE OLD ME! 

Anyway exams suck as usual. TP was disappointing because we had the past year paper but I did not have the time to go through with Kien Te and that is devastating. Because our paper is not the normal/main-stream kind of questions. Our paper was a stunner and I did not prepare for those kind of questions. =(

AFA. OMG. My worse ever paper in school. I was not able to complete A SINGLE QUESTION for the paper. =( After so much effort put in, this is what I get. Actually, I feel quite demoralized after the paper because I feel this is the perfect situation whereby effort does not equate to results. =(

AT. Another OMG. I only started studying for AT 2 days before the exam. The topics that I spotted all did not come out. Those that I thought were unimportant came out. =( SCREWED UP BIG TIME. =( 

This week is a super busy and mad rush week for me. I just completed my AFA presentation on Tuesday and I have a quiz later today at 5pm and AT project due on Saturday 12noon. (AT presentation next Monday)

goodness. So many things in a week. This is only week 4 I thought? Why does it feel like week 13 already!

AFA presentation was a total disaster. The question was so difficult. My group and I had so many problems doing the journal entries and the prof was not exactly helpful. She did not want to tell us the answer even after us consulting her for 5 times? She only wants to ‘GUIDE US’. But I’m sorry to tell you we are still lost after your 5 times attempt to guide us. Maybe next time, it would be better to just tell us the answer straight, instead of leaving us to grapple the answer ourselves in the dark. And there were many errors identified during the presentation too and even after the presentation, we were supposed to make ammendments to our answers and even then, we were not able to make the correct journal entries. I feel so discouraged and disheartened. After trying for so long, we were still unable to get the correct answers. =’(

I’m so going to fail my AFA. SUCKS. =’(((((((((

Today marks the 2nd day that my niece is staying in my room. =(

I HATE THIS. I have no room now. I can’t study now. I can’t sleep in my own room now. I can’t slack in my own room now. I can’t do so many things now. I hate myself. I hate myself being so unlucky. I hate my house being so small.

Today is the 2nd day that I’m staying up late and doing work in the LIVING ROOM. Why am I using the living room when I have my own room! THIS SUCKS BIG TIME.

I HATE MY LIFE NOW!

My niece

29/08/2010

02:30

9 calls from my brother.

My sis-in-law (who is 9 months pregnant）observed some water and blood coming out of her body.

03.30

My sis-in-law is admitted in the hospital and my brother is back home to collect her bag for her.

04:00

My brother is back. The doctor said it’s still too early and asked my brother to be back at the hospital only at 8am the next day.

08:30

I fetched my brother to the hospital.

08:54

My niece is born

I need to file a missing persons police report soon.

My friend, TIME has conveniently disappeared from the surface of this world since last week.

If you ever see her, please help me to tell her that she is greatly missed and please be back for me soon!

Thanks!